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Book titleFumbling in the Dark
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DescriptionIt took me 33 years to figure out that I was mentally ill, yes that is my whole life. I can't put my finger on the name of the disease I have but it wasn't until recently that I admitted to myself that without a doubt I am absolutely depressed, dysfunctional, angry, or just plain mad!From about the time I was five years old I started a process, to deny my dysfunction. The personality traits in my head would help me to avoid dealing with my problems by making everything on a grand scale!the gods were running a muck, and that was keeping me in denial. It was feast or famine, total happiness or complete hate flowing through me. There was no balance. Then by the time I was a teen I started to drink my fears away and hide in my dysfunction that way. I got by on my charming personality until I married and found that my anger was even making its way through the booze. So I quit drinking (at gun point!), I thought that would solve all my problems. Well it turned out that I was drinking because I was hiding from the anger, not that I was getting angry about my drinking! I was miserable, so I started looking at why I was so miserable. I went off on a spiritual way of life, it was fantastic. It gave me a healthy means to avoid admitting that I was sick. There was no creation in my life! I was dominated by fear and I started to work my way out of it. The more I worked on myself the more I realized that I needed to write, it was like alchemy, the more of my feelings I got out on paper the better I felt. Finally I was able to admit that I truly am mentally ill and nothing I could do would fix it until I admitted it and then started to transform it by writing. My poetry is really just my feelings that are spewing up from that which has been deprived to long. No magic no shine, just words from my intimate self. About the AuthorChad Gillies was born in Red Deer Alberta, May 09, 1975. His father passed just 5 short years later causing an avalanche of dysfunction to be thrust upon the youngster. He grew up in a home where fur coats where sometimes more important than food. And liquor was easier than feeling. He was always loud and somewhat charismatic, and quite rebellious. With all that going for him, he found it very easy to fit into all the wrong circles.Two short years later he found himself with a new step father. Always trying his best, he looked for the approval of both his parents. He was desperate, he played their sports, he ate their food, he watched their shows and he did their chores. He tried it all, but he was miserable. And nothing seemed to work.As a teenager he found acceptance in a group of friends that had little in common. The mutual thread they shared was each of their parents had absolutely no idea of who their kids really were. They became tight. They always stuck together and they bonded in beautiful dysfunction together. Hiding from their pain, they used drugs and alcohol on a near daily basis throughout middle and high school. They learned to beg borrow and steal, to fund their habits. Chad did time in a juvenile detention centre, which they say was easy time. But of course he did not fit in there either. Here you can Fumbling in the Dark for free and without registration. Having a large number of compatible formats allows you to read the book on any device. The audio format lets you familiarize yourself with street content or do other things. ilibpro.info is the largest book and manuscript site. Here readers can download Fumbling in the Dark and read the best e-books for free in fb2, epub, txt. Download the free book Fumbling in the Dark in fb2, rtf, epub, pdf, txt formats or read online. Book reviews, related books on Fumbling in the Dark Plagued with a quick temper and a completely different point of view, he learned to use his humor to survive. Chad went on the straight and narrow for a while, except of course, for the alcohol and drugs, which sent him into a swirling depression, and he nearly paid for it with his life. In a state of complete desperation, he attempted to end his life, not once but twice. His second attempt left him near death and unconscious for nearly 4 days. When he awoke he was surrounded by the staff of a physician that quite simply did not understand the boy. They again enabled Chad with more drugs, so he could avoid feeling. Chad was starting to feel well but felt he needed to get some things off his chest. He confessed his whole life to Tammy in an attempt to lift his burden. She could not handle all

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